MY AWAKENING
On December 21st, 2012, something awakened in me—
a simple practice that became the center of my life and the foundation of everything I now teach.
This practice is not about adding anything to you.
It is about seeing through the one thing that creates all suffering:
the sense of being a separate “me.”
THE SPIRITUAL PRACTICE TO END ALL SPIRITUAL PRACTICES
The Problem With Most Spiritual Practices
Most spiritual paths try to improve the seeker.
They offer peace, knowledge, clarity, or a “better version” of yourself.
But what if the self you are trying to improve is the very problem?
You meditate…
You chant…
You read…
You have moments of peace…
but the anxiety returns, the old identity returns, the search returns.
The seeker becomes a new kind of prison.
This practice ends that cycle.
SELF-INQUIRY: THE DIRECT PATH
Every effort you make—every meditation, every attempt to “be spiritual”—is made by the sense of I.
When you sit to meditate,
who is meditating?
When you try to be peaceful,
who is trying?
Always the same thing: the “I,” the imagined person.
This “I” is the root of all suffering.
It is the first thought from which all other thoughts rise.
Every thought is built on this:
• I am worried.
• I am angry.
• I want peace.
• I need to get better.
So the practice I teach is simple:
Turn your attention directly toward the one who says “I.”
Not to fix it.
Not to change it.
But to see what it actually is.
HOW TO DO THE PRACTICE
Step 1 — A thought appears.
You’re sitting quietly and a thought arises:
“I’m worried about tomorrow.”
Step 2 — Don’t follow the story.
Instead of diving into the worry, ask:
“To whom did this thought arise?”
The answer is immediate:
“To me.”
Step 3 — Turn toward the “me.”
Now ask:
“Who am I?”
Not to think of an answer.
Not to create a new belief.
Not to describe yourself.
This question is not meant to get an answer.
It is meant to turn your attention inward—toward the raw feeling of “I exist.”
Feel that simple sense of “I.”
Not the story around it.
Just the sensation of being.
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FOLLOW THE THREAD
Think of the “I” sense like a thread.
Your job is to gently take hold of that thread
and follow it inward to the source it comes from.
You sink beneath thoughts, beneath labels, beneath ideas—
back into the silent center of your being.
When you look directly at the “I,”
the ego cannot survive.
It fades like a shadow you shine a flashlight on.
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THE MIND WILL FIGHT BACK — THIS IS PART OF THE PRACTICE
You will ask, “Who am I?”
and 3 seconds later you’ll be thinking about dinner.
This is normal.
Each time this happens, simply ask:
“To whom did this thought arise?”
“To me.”
“Who am I?”
And dive again.
Every distraction becomes fuel for awakening.
You are no longer fighting thoughts.
You are using them to trace the “I” back to its origin.
As the root is weakened, the mind becomes quiet on its own.
What Happens When You Practice
As the “I” is observed more directly:
• thoughts lose power
• emotions lose their grip
• the mind grows still
• the sense of a separate person begins to dissolve
And what remains is:
peace, stillness, and a deep sense of simply being.
You don’t find a new self.
You discover that you are the Self—
the open, silent awareness beneath all experience.
The ego was only a misunderstanding.
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THE END OF THE SEARCH
Liberation is not something you gain.
It is something revealed when the false “I” is removed.
This practice is the scalpel that cuts away the illusion.
You are not building a better you.
You are seeing through the one who believed it needed improvement.
Everything you have ever sought is already here.
The only question left is:
Who am I?
Your Invitation
“This is the core of my teaching.
If this resonates, I’m here to guide you deeper.”